Being 20 something

well i came across this article so i wish to share this with u all..

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get hot and scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you are.

You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared. You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.

You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you cry and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward. The stupid ones plateau, the smart ones rise.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love someone else, too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You wonder what the hell is wrong with you. You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

We are making a lot of mistakes, but helping one another learn from them. We will piss one another off, and laugh at the end of a conversation that started with angry words. We are a group that talks behind the backs of the same people we call to meet up with on a Friday night, but we are sorry about it and we know that we were just being insecure like they have been.

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it and we are all in this together. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. We are friends, and in 10 years we will be friends who have figured out where we fit in in this world.

i have pass half of my life..

life... and i have pass half of my life now yup by counting years i'm 25 years old now.. so let me see what i have achieve until now.. so far nothing.. and i'm still doin my degree which will finish in april where by some of my friends start working ready and also some doin their masters... i hope this year i can make some real progress in my life.. i know is abit late to talk about resolution and stuff but all this while i was busy with exams and stuff so i'm writing today.. talking about resolution.. this year i have desided not to make any resolution because every year i end up not making any progress about the resolution and it will end up as up complite resolution where its staking up every year.. i notice that i have becoming very sensitive nowdays... i hope that i will do something about that...

one after so long

well it have been so long i logged in this side, maybe i'm so lazy to write a blog.. ok since its a brand new year, let me let u wants new in my life.. well nothing new acually.. i'm having exams now.. yesterday i sat for professional study paper.. where it is core paper which teaches all about bissness and stuff.. so far i only went for 5 class out of 30 classes.. most of the time be sitting in collage cafe for breakfast.. trust me now i'm regrating.. like really.. and i only got 20/50 for my assesment marks.. and the paper i sat today i strewed to the max.. i just hope and pray that i will pass this paper because if i fail this paper i will be end up extending my couse.. which i don't want to happen in my dreams also.. 'oh plz god plz help me in this matter'.. other then that in few hours time i will be sitting for another paper which i not yet finish studying also.. i'm gonna be so strewed..